Still spindrifting

As my faithful reader Amoena already knows, I visited her last week. (Or the week before that, I'm getting confused because of so many things happening in my life lately.)

It was the first time ever since I've known her. I've only known her for, what, five years?! It was about time I saw her humble abode. It was really nice of her to let me stay at hers during my conference trip.

I don't know how she felt about it, seeing that I had to hog her bed due to reasons of practicality, while she had to sleep on the couch.

On top of that, her work mate thought she was a lesbian because I was staying overnight and, you know, I'm a female. The situation calls for a lol, even though I try to avoid that expression elsewhere but in online chats. The thought still cracks me up. I didn't do wonders for her reputation.

Personally, I thought it was a surprisingly nice visit. Even though we've only met "in real life" a couple of times, it felt comfortable and not at all awkward.

We didn't do anything special. I came back from the conference so late in the evening that we didn't really have time for much. On Monday, we watched Desperate Housewives with a friend of hers, then Californication, followed by some Bible channel show. I've got to find out if I have that channel here - it was hilarious.

Amoena has often commented on how cosy my apartment looks and feels. I could say the same of hers. It had so much space, soothingly white walls, and there wasn't as much stuff lying around as in mine. She also had some interesting decorative items, and an impressive bookshelf. I usually keep my own books on the floor out of convenience.

She had so many classics as well as some praised contemporary writers there. I admire so much her ability to not be a genre reader. You'd be hard pressed to label her taste in books. Eclectic, perhaps?

She had stowed in her closet a big box full of some old books that she was willing to give away. I came back home with several kilograms' worth of books. They're all written in Finnish, so it's going to be fun to read books in Finnish for a change. Here are for instance two poetry collections of Viljo Kajava and Toivo Laakso that she gave me:



It's a strange experience to read something in your mother tongue as though it was a foreign language. I'm a little concerned about this. I think I should try to find an opportunity to write more in Finnish, and more often. Chatting on the internet doesn't count.

There is this article I've been trying to write in Finnish for weeks now. All I can come up with are English sentences. It's not that my English is better than my Finnish by any accounts, but for some reason I find it easier to sort my thoughts in English.

It probably also has something to do with your mother tongue feeling more personal, and consequently you pay more attention to your choice of words.

Besides, there are just too many choices because your vocabulary isn't as limited as with a foreign language. But since Finnish teachers think that you have to master your mother tongue before you can master any other languages, I suppose I must do my utmost to practise it more.

Oh and may I point out to Amoena that I finally took heed of her advice: I shrank the banner. See, I'm not completely stubborn. I guess my honeymoon period with that picture is over, since it no longer pained me to distort its proportions.

Afterthoughts

I'm still trying to gather my thoughts regarding a recent linguistics conference visit to Helsinki. It was my first time in a conference, and I didn't really have any idea what it would be like.

Thankfully, I didn't give a "real" presentation just yet, but only a poster presentation. Even so, I had to quickly introduce the topic of my poster in two minutes, and by the end of those longest minutes in my life so far, I could barely get the words out of my mouth.

But it wasn't critical, as I could explain everything without stress afterwards during the poster session to anyone who was interested. Quite a few of the people there were, probably because they couldn't hear anything from my stuttery introduction. But I don't really care. I'll just practise more for an actual presentation in August in München.

Maybe I should take lessons in producing speech properly, as one Scottish woman thought I absolutely should in order to survive in this world. Or not.

The conference was held in an old auditorium where they used to cut bodies open to show medical students what people look like inside. Fascinating. I've always wondered how doctors can understand anything of what they see inside a human's body. To my eyes, the viscera are just a bunch of some red stuff all jumbled up together.



The makeup of the auditorium wasn't too ergonomic, though. If you sat in the front row, your neck would be really stiff because of having to look so high up on the projection screen. And if all the listeners where sitting in the highermost rows, the speaker would get their neck stiff from having to look upwards so much.

I was quite nervous the first day, and drinking a glass of wine into an empty stomach in the evening didn't help my mood much. But by the third day, I was already trying to chat up other people. I congratulated myself on that.

The first day was very computational, and I couldn't really make sense of anything because of my non-existent background in statistics. However, I think I understand better now why many linguists these days have endorsed number crunching.

I suppose I was preinclined to think it's all rubbish to play around with numbers too much, in a way distancing yourself from actual manifestations of language use. I had let myself be influenced by other, more experienced people who didn't see much use in statistics. One more reason why you should look up to your elders and betters, but always take their advice and opinions with a grain of salt.

It really isn't about distancing yourself from language. I think it's just about linguists wanting to gain more credibility for their field of research, a problem I suppose any subject in humanities must face. In a twisted way I'm even looking forward to learning more about statistics. This from a girl who wanted to escape mathematics forever by studying language.

(Don’t laugh. It’s hard to come up with pictures that are actually related to the topic. I'm doing my best to make this post more reader-friendly.)

The second day was more about syntax, which is a field I'm sort of working in myself. Alas, I was still tired from sleeping only 5 hours on two previous nights, so I can't recall much from those presentations. To my relief and joy, the conference organizers emailed today to announce that they're going to put up the presentation slides online for everybody's viewing pleasure. Plus a plethora of somewhat amusing photos.

On the third day, there were some presentations about cross-linguistic typology. It's immensely intriguing from a theoretical point of view, and kudos to all who are courageous enough to try and create some rhyme or reason into such an endeavour.

It all made my own research project seem so small and insignificant. At the moment, I'm fervently trying to develop the topic so that it would seem more worthwhile. One of the linguists at the conference even plain laughed out loud at my poster and then walked away. So officially of course I'm proud of and confident in the importance of my topic, just in case I ever run into more people of his kind.

It didn't really help though to hear from my French friend what his doctoral thesis will be about. I often think he's a jackass (and he doesn't mind me saying so), being French and all that, but he's also a bit of a genius. It boggles my mind how different it is to study history in France. Let alone English. Yes, they do study English over there.

(Picture 1: www.ling.helsinki.fi/sky/tapahtumat/qitl)

Banquo by your bedside

Macbeth is probably my favourite by Shakespeare. I also quite like the volume that I own of the play, with the sketchy portrait in bright colours. The font size is big and there are lots of footnotes, so it has a good, hefty feel, even though it's the shortest play he wrote, if I remember correctly.



When I applied to study English philology in university years back, I was young and stupid. I thought it would be just about linguistics. Little did I know that half of the studies are actually about literature. Heaven forbid that I should have taken a look at the syllabi on the university website.

A smarter person would have been able to guess so much from the entrance exam books. For Tampere, you had to read George Yule's Study of Language (which, fair enough, is about linguistics) and Montgomery et al's Ways of Reading (which is about basic theoretical issues in literary studies).



Yule's book was very well written, it makes learning about language very easy and even funny. It's a good introduction to the field of linguistics if you have absolutely no prior knowledge of it.

Montgomery and co's book wasn't that bad either, but it was completely misleading as to what literary studies are actually about at university level. (I couldn't even find a decent picture of it, evidence of just how unpopular it must be in general.)



For Turku, you had to read H.G. Widdowson's Linguistics, which was highly theoretical and challenging for a beginner, which fact I very much relished. There's nothing like the orgasmic feeling of expanding your mental horizons by reading something you can't quite understand, at least not immediately.



The University of Jyväskylä had The Bluest Eye by Toni Morrison and the aforementioned Ways of Reading as the required readings. I liked the novel, and it was actually a must-read later on in Tampere. Most importantly, when writing an essay about the book in the entrance exam I got to use one of my favourite words in English, soliloquy.

I love the sound of the word: you start with a weak syllable, which is then followed by a quick sequence of closed syllables, and at the end you glide away with a long [e]. The word didn't have much purpose in the essay, but that didn't diminish my feeling of triumph.



You might guess now why I chose to apply to these particular universities. I didn't even consider Helsinki, because I would have had to read a set of four completely different books. The strategy paid off, as I got accepted in all three universities.

So I've nothing against literature per se. I was a huge book buff when I was young, though what I read wasn't necessarily anything classic or prestigious. I enjoyed the act of reading, being completely immersed in another world and in somebody else's thoughts and feelings. It was escapism at its finest.

I liked a specific kind of fantasy. I liked for instance Sagan om Isfolket by Margit Sandemo, which is a 47-volume series telling the story of a family of witches from the 17th to the 20th century.

I'm not so fond of the kind with the elves, hobbits, wizards, dragons and whatnot. Somehow I could never buy into those Middle Earth-style worlds where people were stuck in the middle ages. I mean, why is it that they nearly always place fantasy stories in a medieval world?



The castles and swords and horses and armours and the clothes may look all fancy, but I find it hard to relate to characters who have to live in such a world. Because let's face it, who would seriously want to live like that? I'm reasonably happy in today's Finland where I don't need to know how to use a sword in order to protect myself against the dragons and those nasty little buggers called hobbits.

A fantasy freak might respond to this by saying that it's only fiction, don't take it so seriously. But that's exactly what you should and have to do when studying literature in university. It was a shocker to me to be honest.

While it doesn't necessarily take away from the reading experience to analyse the text closely, I do think it makes the experience dramatically different when compared to a child's way of reading.

As a kid, I used to devour several books a day during holidays, and at least one book a week throughout the year. I didn't stop to think about the symbolic meanings of anything in the books, or what the texts really mean aside from the story and the characters on the surface.



It took me a long time to get over my prejudices against literary analysis. The teachers had a role to play in my antipathy, as they seemed to think literature was the be-all and the end-all in the whole wide world (notice the not-so-clever Macbeth quote).

In my mind, literary criticism was equated with elitist assholism. When I didn't do so well with my first literature essay, the teacher flashed me a holier-than-thou smile and asked whether I was going to drop out of uni.

So just because I didn't have a clue after only one course, she thought there was no point in going on. As though literature was the only thing that mattered. My grades weren't that good in linguistics, either, but I knew I would learn eventually because I actually liked it.



So where does our gentle Shakespeare figure in this story of doom and gloom? Well, he made me fall in love with reading again. I totally didn't expect the plays to have such an impact on me. I'd seen some televised versions, but I never saw anything special in them.

I suppose I was really taken by the story of the tragic figure of Macbeth. Seeing a film of the play where he was a very fine young man didn't hurt, either. (I'm a sucker for men with a short beard, and a cute ringmail hood.)



But truth be told, I have always had a predilection for tragic characters. Call them baddies if you will.

I always find baddies the most interesting characters. In a way, they're the most human of all humans. In real life, everyone likes goody-goodies, to be sure. But stories about thoroughly good and benevolent people make really bad ones. I don't think you can fully relate to someone who is supposedly a perfect human being.

I know some people who don't seem to realize this. They don't see fault in themselves. I've seen them behave in less than moral ways many times, yet they fail to question themselves even afterwards.

How can you grow as a person if you don't see what you're doing wrong? If you never question your own motives and never acknowledge your imperfections, how can you truly accept anyone else's?

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If anything, I think people who don't realize their own occasional immoral or otherwise unbecoming behaviour are actually more dangerous than those who do. Once you notice that you're not as kind and tolerant as you thought you were, you can consciously start trying to become more so.

But if you always see things only your way, your ways and opinions being ultimately superior to those of others, well... what can I say, I feel sorry for those people. With their delusional self image, they're probably intolerant of different views and opinions, different choices in life.

And isn't Macbeth's story about someone who is very human in his lowly desires, ambitions and " evil" thoughts, who can yet understand the evil quality of his thoughts and actions?

Of course we judge people by their behaviour rather than by their thoughts, so one shouldn't tolerate Macbeth's actions. But when someone says they don't feel a thing for a tragic figure like Macbeth, I'm astonished.

(Pictures 3,4,6,7,8,9,10: http://www.routledge.com; http://www.oup.com; http://images.amazon.com; http://upload.wikimedia.org; http://www.mallorywrites.com; http://www.bardolatry.com; http://lh6.ggpht.com)

Capricious

All the negativity of my previous post on Italy aside, I liked Capri a lot. It was really beautiful there, and CLEAN. I loved the bougainvillea that were growing on almost every wall.

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I liked the villa of Axel Munthe (1857-1949) in particular, Villa San Michele, which is actually located in the town of Anacapri, higher up the island. The towns of Capri and Anacapri harbour some sort of enmity towards each other for some reason.

Munthe was a Swedish writer and a doctor. He designed his villa himself, and wanted it to be the embodiment of his visions that he had over the years.



When they started working on the site of the house, they discovered old Roman remains of columns and statues, and plaques with writing on them.

The locals thought it was all a bunch of rubbish, but Munthe used them to decorate his villa. He was farsighted, as now everyone can of course appreciate their aesthetic, let alone historical value.



He claimed to have found many of the sculptures through the visions he had.

He'd one day been sitting down by the sea, and got an overwhelming feeling that someone was watching him. He told his employees to go search the sea in a particular spot, and what d'you know, they found the head of Medusa.



Another time he wanted to find a sphinx to add to his furniture. He sailed to a random island, told his people to wait for 24 hours and if he hadn't come back by then they should leave. He did come back in time, with him a small statue of a sphinx.

He placed it on a terrace of a kind, and there it was laying on a balustrade and facing the rising sun. Nobody can see its face, unless they're willing to plummet to their death.

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They're nice stories, but I strongly suspect that our Mr. Axel was a bit of a cuckoo.

I realize I haven't been posting any new paintings in a while. Anyone who discovers this site now must wonder how come it's supposed to be about painting and art. Yet I think all these photos look really good against this new layout, so I hope others can enjoy them from an aesthetic point of view like I do.

I got a little carried away with my recent encroachments on my other hobbies, and I haven't even posted about all of my new ideas yet. I think it's positive that I don't always have to blather about my paintings. Sometimes they really aren't that interesting, even to me.

(Pictures 4 and 5: http://www.capri.com)

Fry, baby, fry!

When I came home from my week-long vacation in Italy, extended by a linguists' conference trip to Helsinki during which I stayed at Amoena's place, I had a really nice surprise waiting for me.

My adorable little rainbows which I introduced in the previous post came 'running' to get food, having been more or less starving for the last two weeks. The tank was in a need of a water change, as well. My brother had fed the fish once and cleaned up the tank, but rainbow cichlids have an endless appetite.

However, one of my four babies was nowhere to be seen. Eventually I found her in one of the back corners, showing off strong colours and reluctant to come to eat. My first thought was, she must be guarding spawn. My rainbows have spawned a couple of times already, but the catfish always ate them.

Despite eyeing the corner from every angle, I couldn't find the spawn. Then I noticed something wiggling right in the front of the side glass. FRY!!!!!!! My babies had got babies of their own!!

Here's the angry mother trying to will me to take my face off the glass and her babies.



The fry is actually in plain sight here, hugging the base of the plant on the righthand side right at the front. But there is very little light in this part of my apartment, and my camera is not very good either. But believe me, it's right there.

I have no idea how they managed to protect their spawn this time. Perhaps they found extra courage to fight the catfish because I wasn't around and bothering them all the time?

Whatever the truth, I bought some eggs yesterday so I have something to feed to the fry once they start swimming. As long as they hug the ground/roots of a plant/whatever, they are still using their yolk sac as nutrition. When they start swimming, they will need something superfinely ground food.

Poor woman's option for baby fish food are boiled egg yolks, which as you know can be smashed into very fine powder. I also have 10 -years-old dried baby fish food from an aquarium shop, but I don't have it here in Tampere, and in all likeness it no longer contains any vitamins or nutrients. My artemia-breeding apparatus is also at my parents, gathering dust.

Now all I can do is buy a very thin plastic tube with which I can siphon the yolk right where the fry is gathered. Egg yolk is fortunately rich in protein, fat, vitamins and other important nutrients.

Here's the new daddy on the left at the bottom of the tank, just about to lock jaws with the other male rainbow. The one on the top is the other female.



The other male has gotten jealous of the pair that has successfully breeded. That's why he's challenging the new dad by literally mouthing him. It's very entertaining. It's difficult to get pictures of them fighting, however, because as soon as I take out my cameraphone, they see my movement and stop and come begging for food.

A cichlidian, me? Most ardently

It hit me only a while back. My mobile/cell phone has a built-in camera! A camera. The kind with which you can take pictures! (The other kind would be Italian for "room", una camera.)

So I kind of went all wild.



Here's my pride and joy. My 200-litre tropical tank. Notice my elegant lighting system which allows plants to grow out of the tank. Theoretically, that is - those that are seemingly coming out are actually vines of golden pothos that I put in so they'll grow roots.

The lamps are HID lamps, with many times more light than the regular fluorescent lamp tubes that aquarium shops usually forcefully sell to aquarists. They also last many times longer, and don't lose their luminosity like fluorescent tubes do.

HID lamps are also much more expensive, but in the long run they're cheaper than fluorescent tubes. You have to change your tubes preferably every year if you are a plant enthusiast, and want your plants to flourish, because by that time they will have lost half of their lighting power. HID lamps, on the other hand, don't lose virtually any luminosity until they completely go out at once. And that takes 10 years on average!

Both lamp types are problem waste, so there's no way you can be environmentally friendly anyway. HID lamps generate more heat than fluorescent ones, but that's not really an issue in Finland since the summer time is quite short anyway.

I had trouble snapping photos of my babies, i.e. my four Herotilapia multispinosa, or "Rainbow cichlids". They're incredibly shy.



I realized that they actually can see outside their tank. I can sit there, watching them from 10 cm's distance, and they're not bothered. But as soon as I draw out my phone camera, no matter how slowly, they freak out! And vanish in the bushes.

But in this one they are looking towards the surface, thinking they'll be getting food any second. I was luring them with their favourite delicacy, frozen red mosquito larvae.



I know what you're thinking - who could resist long, slimy and nutritious little worms?



They probably look gross to anyone who isn't an aquarist. I am personally desentisized to their feel and appearance. I feed them by finger, because that way it's easier to control the portion size. They're not alive anymore, you can buy them frozen from aquarium shops.

Live bugs are much more fun to feed to your fish(es). They wiggle, so I can't just scoop them from a mug with my finger, but they're definitely worth it if you can find them in a pond or a ditch. The fish will get this ravenous, crazy gleam in their eyes and they keep bumping into each other because they're so excited about food that can swim away.

They just love hunting after their food. Frozen bloodworms are the second best thing, since my cichlids often aim for the same worm and end up getting stuck by their mouths. They're a lot of fun to watch. Not exactly the brightest crayons in the box.

(Picture 4: www.cals.ncsu.edu)

Spindrifting

So I'm back from Italy.



The weather was torturous - it was nearly +40 celsius on Wednesday! It was unusual for this time of year, but it was the Sirocco wind from Africa that caused the hell's cauldron.



The hotel me and my mum stayed at was a four star hotel, had air conditioning, but they wouldn't turn it on! They only keep it on from 15th of June onwards! Make sense?

Didn't think so, but it fits the general Italian way of handling things. If you can do things clumsily, unhandily, annoyingly, non-punctually, in any way but well, you can trust an Italian to accomplish such a feat. To put it harshly and a little stereotypically, yet with a certain weight of truth to it.

I'm not a complete Italy hater. I've been there three times now. I've taken a course in Italian. It's a beautiful country, and there are some nice people there, but they're trapped in a vicious cycle where nobody really cares about their future, or if they do, can't really do much to improve it. One of every four Italians is poor, and the tiny elite owns about 40% of the land and wealth.



Every single building in Sorrento and Napoli, the cities I visited this time, was somehow broken, ugly or grumbling down. The traffic is a complete chaos. Anywhere you go, be it a restaurant or a shop, you can almost never pay with a credit or bank card. You always have to carry around a bagful of coins, so you can pay the exact price of something, and give tips in restaurants.



I understand the tips are necessary for most of the people who earn very little as actual wages. Their wages haven't gone up while all prices have since the coming of the euro. It's sad. To make it even worse, Italy has a very low birth rate: it's about 1,1 children per person.

That one child cannot move too far away from their parents, because they will need someone to look after them when they're old. The good thing about crappy jobs that aren't really necessary, like taking luggage from the front yard of the hotel to the guests' rooms, is that it helps keep people employed.



And what about the mafia? It's hard for a Finn to understand what it must be like to live under constant fear of something that you can't fight. I don't see how they can ever get rid of it. It's terrifying when you really think about it.

Edit: I got a comment from Amoena (personal communication) that she always thought mafia is a thing from movies, and old ones at that. So did I, until I visited Tropea two years ago. Tropea is a tiny town in southern Italy, very poor, but it has attracted some tourist activity over the last 10 years, thanks to Germans who discovered this beautiful little place.

While I was staying there, one small grocery store was burned one night. It happens that every now and then, shops and private facilities mysteriously catch fire during night time. Just because the owners did not or could not pay protection money to the mafia. It's horrible. Because the poor citizens cannot afford to tell the police due to concerns about retaliation against their property or even their life, the problem is very hard to solve.

The latest "European happiness survey" conducted by Cambridge university tells us that Italy rates very low in happiness among European countries. The Danes are the happiest, and the Finns are the second happiest of all! Italy came in at the 15th place.

The researchers attributed the high ranking of Finns and Danes to the well structured governmental and societal structures of their countries. Being able to trust the law and the government, as well as your fellow citizens, was also an important factor. It is a no brainer why Italians would feel so unhappy. However, even though they may rank low in such a survey, it doesn't stop them from being nice and friendly. At least when their tips are at stake.